He Doesn't Want to Know

by Heartless
(The Netherlands)

When I first met him I knew only he could have my heart, but I found out he had another woman. That's when I cut it off.

But I couldn't forget him and cried for many months. I tried to go on with my life and got involved in another relationship. Then I became pregnant with my first child.

My soul mate and I had contact again, but I didn't want to meet with him. I knew I would leave the father of my child. I remained in contact with him and never hid my feelings.

Five years later, after not seeing my soul mate, the father of my children and I broke up. I wanted to see my soul mate again, just to be sure what I still felt for him wasn't an illusion. He opened the windows of my heart and soul. He made me feel safe and secure.

Then I found out he was still playing the same game: he had another girlfriend. I won't be with him that way.

Still, I never felt so much peace with another person in my life -- only with him. I still do. My feelings for him stop me from loving someone else. I know I belong with him. I'm sure he knows he belongs with me but he ignores it. That hurts.

I never believed in something like soulmates until I met him. I can never give myself to someone in the way I give myself to him. I only feel whole with him. When we're together we're one.