Karma? Crush? Or true love?

by Grace
(California)

Let me start off by saying that the idea of reincarnation is something that due to my current religion, is something I have not completely embraced.

The two women closest to me are like myself Catholic but, twisted as it may be, both believe without a doubt that reincarnation is a very real notion. I believe reincarnation to be a possibility, I am almost sure, but I guess my loyalty to this life's religious teachings is too strong.

I met a guy in my U.S History class. I was completely heartbroken at the time because of a very tumultuous and exhausting off and on relationship. History Guy sat a foot away from me for about a month before I noticed him.

The day we first crossed words began with an insult. I was talking to my friend and he randomly says that I look like one of those girls that gets pregnant and parties.

I am most definitely not one of those girls! I looked at him and asked him who the hell did he think he was? He simply said, "It got your attention didn't it?" We exchanged numbers at the end of class.

That very afternoon, after three months of not hearing from another Off-and-On guy, he comes back. The story is long and high school like, but I ended up being unable to let go of the Off-and-On guy, and lost any real chance of a relationship with Mr. History. But not without spending a few months with him, getting to know our families and each other.

I moved on; he moved on. He went to one and college I went to another. I met a wonderful, amazing, loving man who I have no doubt is my Karmic love and soul mate. But, Mr. History keeps popping in.

I dream about him constantly. One dream in particular was very telling. I basically was around a beach fire with three people. We were singing and laughing, and talking. He was of course one of these people, and I just felt this need to be close to him, like before.

It might sound crazy, but while dreaming I knew that the meaning behind the dream was that I had unfinished business with each of them, and in my dream I knew that spending time with him was wrong. I felt guilty.

We have spoken since our time together but we have agreed it is better to keep our distance considering my current relationship status.

I am happy, very happy with my boyfriend. Our connection is inexplicable. We met randomly, clicked instantly, and fell in love quickly. We began talking about marriage and children two months into our relationship. Mind you, we met when we were seventeen and nineteen. So what do you think?