What Does Karma Mean
for Twins?

by Sue
(East of the Mississippi)

I suppose everyone wonders about Karma and what sort of role that it plays in our lives.

To be honest, I'm not sure I believe in past or future lives but I also have to admit that I have a HUGE problem with faith. I think you need faith to believe.

Ahhh... and there is the crux of what I consider to be my biggest issue in life.

Faith.

I believe passionately and wholeheartedly in so much but I lack the faith to trust and therefore to recognize and to ultimately understand.

I know that I seek refuge in my anger and my despair at what life has tossed at me at times. I watch my husband seek solace in his staunch Catholic faith and I watch on the sidelines jealous that he finds comfort when I twist and turn myself out over things I have no control over.

You see, I was footloose and fancy free; blindly having faith that if I worked hard, if I was a good person then my "Karma" would treat me well. That was until my daughter died as a baby. Kaitlyn would be 24 years old now.

While I've coped and see her as our family's Guardian Angel, I know that I still seethe inside that such a precious little one could pass on so very young.

To add mystery to Kaitlyn's death, my twin sister and I had each of our children just a month apart. Seth and Kaitlyn were our second born and shared a birthday just 4 weeks apart from each other.

What is it about Karma that treats twins as one sometimes?

Twenty years later, Seth accidentally over-dosed. Inexplicably, 20 years to almost the day of Kaitlyn's death.

Is that Karma?

How so?

I don't understand all the ins and outs about Karma, but I do know that I can identify so many "twin" things, so many parallels, so many unfathomable events that I expect that there must be another purpose.

I only hope it is a good one...

Sue